Wednesday, 14 March 2012


For the past four years I have read about Ascension, about the Golden Age, Disclosure and Nesara…even though at an early age I had some life changing trauma experiences. I also had a lot of spiritual experiences but… it took its flight when I became aware of Ascension. So right now, right here…on this space of paper…I realize that spiritual I grew a lot, especially when I read back in my spiritual diary. How we adapt to certain ideas and then abandon them again and move on. But did I? It reminds me of something Lisa Gawlas said: “that being aware doesn’t mean that you are awake”.

It became very clear to me when I had a scary dream last week, which felt so real. Immediately when I woke up I got angry at those negative spirits and that they not scare me at all. I did my protection meditation and ask my guides to remove the negative energy. As I wrote it down on the website Spirit Train Chronicles, I got a lovely answer back from Leslee, which it is natural for us to respond with anger and wrath. So if it is still natural for us, that means I was still anchored in 3D emotions and old habits. The next question that pops into my mind is…how do we change this.

As I was pondering about it and thought about what they said about detachment and that from that place you can love unconditionally. I read it several times, in several changelings but never connected to it until now. So the only thing to change those old habits is when you conscious about them and from there you can change them. A perfect example is my scary dream, now that I am aware how I reacted, the next time I get such an intense experience, I will act differently, with love and compassion. But until major changes are happening, a big wake up call, we still be stuck in our old habits, ways, emotions, still playing our 3D duality game.

It seems that one of our favorite games to play, even among lightworkers, is the game to divide. If you are not on my side, you are the enemy. In my opinion there is no wrong or right, because everyone is on a different level of understanding and have different things that they resonate with. So we have a camp of lightworkers that is saying that we don’t need help from our space brothers and sisters because it is US that we are waiting for. It only resonates partly for me. Indeed it is US we are waiting for but that doesn’t mean that we don’t need help. And don’t think our space brothers and sisters would do everything for us; no we have to do the hard work. But we shouldn’t see this as was the glass half empty but instead half full. We, lightworkers have a common goal and that is Ascension. But the road we take to the common goal is by different roads, ideas and opinions. Anyway if we would all take the same road or the same route we would have a traffic jam  And different is always good, diversity at its best.

And then I remembered some joke I read, here it is.
The Great Flood
There was a huge flood in a village.
One man said to everyone as they evacuated, "I'll stay! God will save me!"
The flood got higher and a boat came, and the man in it said "Come on mate, get in!"
"No" replied the man. "God will save me!"
The flood got very high now and the man had to stand on the roof of his house.
A helicopter soon came and the man offered him help. "No, God will save me!" he said.
Eventually the man drowned.
He got by the gates of heaven and he said to God, "Why didn't you save me?"
God replied, "For goodness sake! I sent a boat and a helicopter. What more do you want!"

So you get my drift.

So I save the best for last. Everything is in a rapid movement, the resignations of the banker’s world wide and still counting. Now we are talking about changes, finally there is some movement in the financial world and that means disclosure is coming nearer. I just wonder if paper money becomes worthless, do we still have to go to work. Because we are going to work to earn.

As I close down this article I get this song in my head: “I see you, when you get there….” From Coolio.